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Synthesis Essay

Living the Dream

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you’ve imagined.” – Henry David Thoreau

Back in 2004 when I began pursing my post-baccalaureate teaching preparatory program at Eastern Michigan University, a close friend of mine surprised me with a pewter ornament. The gift commemorated the beginning of my journey as a student who dreamed of becoming an elementary teacher. The ornament was shaped like a heart and engraved with the quote featured above from Henry David Thoreau. I have always treasured the present and its message, but as I near the end of my Master of Arts in Education (MAED) program at Michigan State University (MSU) and I reflect upon how I have changed over the course of my graduate studies, I no longer simply look at Thoreau’s words from the eyes of an eager scholar. Two years, ten courses, thirteen textbooks, numerous case studies, countless journal articles, and seemingly endless essays later, I now appreciate Thoreau’s words more broadly from the perspectives of an explorer, a professional, and a lifelong learner.

Eyes of an Explorer

When I first joined the MAED program in the summer of 2014, without a doubt digital literacy was the area in which I had the least confidence, knowledge, or skill. At the time I was living in China, and when I encountered my initial assignment in CEP 866 Psychoeducational Interventions for Children & Youth, I certainly felt like a bungling foreigner in an unfamiliar land. My first assignment as a fledging graduate student was to create an introductory video of myself, make it available online, and post the link to a drop box. I sat down at my MacBook Pro and thought, “Ok…I’m sure this laptop can make videos because I’ve seen my own kids do it. But first things first...What exactly is a drop box?” Clumsily I managed to carryout the assignment with a great deal of anxiety and little satisfaction. My apprehension with technology continued later in the course during a group project when my partners and I were confronted with the challenge to learn an unfamiliar audio recording application to enhance a summative PowerPoint presentation. Instead of seizing the opportunity to learn new skills, I viewed the task as a dreadful burden – a hoop to jump through on my way to becoming a master teacher. What I had failed to consider was jumping through hoops can actually be fun and rewarding. I enjoyed exploring cultural heritage sites, seeking outdoor adventures, and sampling unusual foods on vacation…so why was I fearful of trying to learn digital applications that might be useful to me or my students in the classroom? No one in my group considered themselves technologically savvy, but rather than stepping out of my comfort zone, I sat idly waiting for another group member to show the hutzpah to tackle the unfamiliar hi-tech aspect of our group project. As I look back at this memory I realize that over the direction of my graduate studies, I’ve come a long way with my enthusiasm to take risks. Now if I was confronted with a similar situation, I am confident that I would not shy away from the opportunity to discover something new.

 

My confidence with risk taking began to grow during the second course I happened to take later that same semester. To my chagrin, CEP 840 Policies, Practices and Perspectives in Special Education had started off in a similar manner to CEP 866. As I scrolled down the syllabus, I was dismayed to notice the culminating project involved designing a website complete with interactive hyperlinks, imported images, and videos. Grudgingly I faced the fact that being digital literate was an expectation in my new school community, and I’d needed to adjust my perception of technology as an opportunity for growth rather than a dreaded obstacle to elude. Subsequently, CEP 840 came into my academic life at the perfect time. Although the course relied heavily on technology for sharing what we learned, I was provided with ample scaffolds to support my stumbling efforts in the form of ‘how to’ video demonstrations and other resources that encouraged self-reliance. While I still considered myself a technological novice at the end of the course, my funds of knowledge grew to include collaborative document sharing, ways to conference with colleagues from a distance, as well as rudimentary website building skills. With my improved digital literacy came future possibilities for communication and information sharing with colleagues, parents, and students. I slowly became more comfortable taking risks with technology and to my delight discovered the truth in the familiar saying, nothing ventured, nothing gained – as long as you don’t click the ‘save’ button. 

Peering through a Professional Perspective 

During studies in CEP 840 I also gained first-hand experience benefiting from the way scaffolds can positively impact self-efficacy. This was by far one of the most essential lessons I gained from the course. It had been a long time since I was in an environment as a learner, and I had forgotten what it felt like to experience insecurity and doubt. CEP 840 was truly instrumental in transforming my views of providing scaffolds to support struggling students, and consequently, the deficit model has been wiped from my vocabulary. With examination of evidenced-based practices, accommodations and modifications, assistive technology, and the key principles attributed to Universal Design for Learning (UDL), I discovered that students’ failure or success to thrive directly related to teachers promoting access to knowledge and removing barriers that prevent students from showing what they know and can do.

 

Another course that significantly impacted my funds of knowledge as an educator was CEP 802 Developing Positive Attitudes Toward Learning. Since the beginning of my teaching career, my overall objective had been to encourage children to become agents of their own learning. While working and living as a foreigner overseas, however, I noticed that academic progress was often stalled until students felt like they belonged to their new environment. This seemed particularly relevant to students with learning differences and English Language Learners. Consequently, creating a caring community of learners became my priority at the beginning of each school year. I surmised that international students and their families often lived far from extended families and friends and therefore, creating a learning environment based upon genuine interconnectedness and interdependence provided a sense of belonging the children longed for. CEP 802 was integral to my self-efficacy as an educator because my informal observations and classroom practice became cemented by respected theory I learned of during the course. While examining behavioral, intrinsic motivation, and cognitive-developmental models, I was introduced to Edward Deci and Richard Ryan’s (2000) Self-Determination Theory. The Self-Determination Theory maintained that social environments encourage intrinsic motivation when they reinforce three innate psychological needs – autonomy, competence, and relatedness. Discovering that there was substantiated research supporting my intuitive teaching practice was extremely reassuring. Finally I could competently articulate my views about caring learning communities with confidence supported by theory. 

Looking as a Lifelong Learner

The term lifelong learner currently seems to be a popular catchphrase in educational circles. Nevertheless, I was directly impacted by the term when I worked at an International Baccalaureate (IB) World School, since the IB’s overall mission involves fostering lifelong learners. Throughout my graduate studies at MSU the term was used – and perhaps overused – as a way to emphasize the necessity of preparing students for fruitful lives. My respect for the phrase was genuinely deepened, however, while engaging in philosophical investigations in ED 800 Educational Inquiry. Through examinations of progressive educators such as renowned John Dewey to present-day advocates such as Deborah Meier and Nel Noddings, I was able to solidify my belief that the overall purpose of education is to promote social values and to encourage self-realization. In other words, the aim of teaching is to reveal the world of opportunities and encourage children to envision themselves fulfilling dreams.

 

To my own aims for lifelong learning, ED 800 introduced me to narrative inquiry as an approach to conduct research, analyze students’ outcomes, inform instruction, and reflect upon my own practice. With the best intentions, teachers devote themselves to making differences in their student’s lives. Towards that end, in the past I had informally considered how my choices impacted students’ outcomes. However, I had not taken the time in my pedagogical approach to systematically investigate my practice. Furthermore, as a mere teacher, I had not considered myself qualified to conduct academic research. Frankly, the thought of research was intimidating. Fortunately, ED 800 introduced me to narrative inquiry. Less intimidating than traditional research methods, narrative inquiry follows reflective practices regularly used by educators, but elevates practitioner reflection to a deeper, more meaningful and academic level. The storytelling method provides committed teachers with a relevant research method to strengthen their craft. In fact, I successfully used the journaling approach to conduct research for another graduate course in my program, and found the format extremely effective. Consequently as my career continues, I plan to incorporate a narrative journal writing process into my regular practice to gather data, analyze students’ progress, and reflect upon my methods.

 

EAD 860 Concept of the Learning Society was another course that deepened my understanding of the genuine meaning and application of lifelong learning. In particular, I came to recognize that every facet of a person’s life evolves around different prospects to gain and share knowledge. Subsequently, considering the span of an individual’s entire life, I have come to appreciate the concept of learning as it encompasses both traditional perceptions of formal schooling, as well as other avenues for people to gain knowledge well into adulthood. Working from the premise that education is a right – not a privilege – a genuine learning society should provide both formal and informal learning opportunities that are accessible for all members of society.

 

Two of my graduate courses in particular introduced me to non-traditional avenues for self-directed learning. CEP 840 Policies, Practices and Perspectives in Special Education, a course I discussed earlier, introduced me to the vast availability of free resources designed to enhance teachers’ instructional and assessment practices through self-directed inquiry. CEP 840 provided me with the opportunity to become familiar with The IRIS Center, for instance. The IRIS Center provides educators with unrestricted resources and learning modules covering a wide span of topics intended to improve students’ academic and social achievement, especially children with learning differences. Another course that was instrumental to my objectives as a lifelong learner was CEP 842 Content Area Instruction for Students with Mild Disabilities. CEP 842 encouraged me to seek out reputable avenues such as Diigo and Evernote to archive, organize, and share knowledge with other educators. During CEP 842, I created a digital archive of journal articles, websites, instructional and assessment strategies, and other documents to refer to in the future. Since initially creating the archive – and realizing the valuable power of tagging – I have added other resources to my collection as I continue to a build an ever-growing professional library of digital media.

Moving Forward 

challenges, and personal backgrounds. For I believe knowing your students is the key to form trusting relationships with students and their families, to remove barriers and increase access to knowledge, to share expectations and confidence in students’ abilities to learn, and to help young learners believe in dreams. With my master’s program drawing to a close, I appreciate my responsibility to provide students with a caring learning environment filled with accessible resources and rich opportunities to develop their strengths and create their own knowledge. At the beginning of my journey to become a teacher, I was motivated to follow my dream. As I am about to complete my master’s program, my dream has evolved to ensuring students have self-efficacy to recognize their own dreams, and support them as they reach for the sky.

The knowledge I have gained through experiences as a graduate student has expanded my views as a curious explorer, a committed professional, and a devoted lifelong learner. I have been encouraged to undertake self-directed inquiries, analyze information, make connections, and reflect upon implications – which has led to further inquiries. Engaging with my peers as a graduate student, I have been reminded that students come into a teacher’s life from diverse backgrounds that potentially can impact every area of learning. Whether it’s competencies with technology, capabilities with communication, willingness to collaborate, maintaining confidence to take risks, or sustaining motivation to learn – every student is different. Through my own struggles and successes as a student, I have embraced the fundamental importance of getting to know children’s strengths, 

Reference:

Ryan, R. & Deci, E. (2000). Self-determination theory and the facilitation of intrinsic motivation, social development, and well-being. American Psychologist, 55, 68-78.

Quote:

Goodreads. (2016). Thoreau quote. Retrieved March 14, 2016, from https://www.goodreads.com/author/quotes/10264.Henry_David_Thoreau.

 

Photo:

Heart Photo Property of Janine Baur

 

Image:

Lanterns in Sky Image. (n.d.) Retrieved March 15, 2016 from Wix.com.

 

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